Walking down the spiritual path is not linear.
Although to help people get started the process has been defined here in four very high-level steps —Mind, Body, Soul, and Spirit - the actual path can be more like a spiral.
'Spirituality is not a clear-cut trajectory. It is a spiral movement.' (Alexander, Indigo Light)
Your mind starts to kick in and set all sort of expectations as to what the process should be like but what may actually happen is completely different.
Just relax and be patient.
If a goal or expectation is not reached, it’s okay.
There is an underlying lesson still playing out.